:)

Games will be played, hearts will be broken, tears will fall, people will change and rumors will be spread. But life will always go on. :)

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07-25-12 10:05pm

Teary Eyes..

God, Im down again. PLEAAAASE cheer me up again. pleaaase. I need you a lot. You know me. ikaw lang maka comfort sa akin. I wanna cry. I swear. i feel so stupid, and everything. Im tired. :( I swear. I always keep my spirit up. and then having a postive look. but DAMN IT DAMN IT. Im so frustrated about my life. dugang pa akong grades. :( Help me maka cope up God. PLEASE. Guide me. guide me. I need my happiness God. I really need it. Give me God. :( come on. pls? T_T basya God do what makes me happy. I love you. :(((( I feel so sorry I dont know why. </3333333333333333333333 Im not broken in terms of Love. in terms of life YES

07-25-12

after 04 months of deactivating my facebook account.. I tried to reactivate it again. and then again.. Deactivated. I still damn getting hurt.. :( I hate it.

07-20-12

After a long time, finally I missed the feeling of being in love again. To love and be loved by someone. Where you could share the things that happened on your day. Someone who cares for you, gave you affection, who will check you every minute. who would get mad cause you skip a meal. The reason why your still up in the middle of the night. Yung tinitext ka everyday, every time. Someone who could make you feel that your worth loving for.

I MISS..
           ME. feeling happy loving someone. I missed me my sweetness. I miss thinking of somebody. I miss worrying of someone. I miss caring, I miss my sweetness. my bitterness is over flowing. I miss making someone happy. I miss making random surprises. I miss having a man. I miss texting every night. Miss ko na makilig. (hindi na ako nakikilig ever since) na miss ko na mag emote emote. I miss being In LOVE & then being BROKE again. :))

BUT,
      Then and again after my experiences in terms of love I couldnt dare myself to love again. To open again. Psanthrophobia :) The fear of trusting. Im afraid I might get hurt again, so much pain again. Scared that hurt may happen again. I dont want to love again... I hate the way I loved because its overflowing.. I dont like that. :( Thats also the reason why I dont entertain much miskan crush pa nako.Tae kaayo bai ako na pinaka tanga pagdating sa love. I admit that. And ayaw ko masanay sa mga stuffs like always ka may ka text my kausap. I just dont fucking like. Remember time changes seasons. Change, of course feelings change. Im imagining a compatible lasting relationship so it means I should wait for the right time. If its your time, then be it. Wag mag madali. We are young once so enjoy while your waiting for your time.

2 AM :)

SLEEP OVER @James place. :) Im blessed I have them.

GOD

Hello God,

how are you? Me Im fine. :) I miss you God. I dont know why. Thank youu God for everything, :) for all the lessons I have learned, for all the blessings you gaved to me and to my family. :) You deserve to be praise for you are good all the time. thanks God you inspire me every time. :) And I love that because I inspire others. Thanks for my atittude God! Your my everything God. NO ONE could ever replace you in my heart. I know you wont leave me. thanks for understanding me God. Your the Best I've ever had. Ikaw na bahala sa akin God ha. SORRY if sometimes makalimutan ko mag thank you but you know I really appreciate everything. :) Thanks for all for all the seasons of feelings I haved encountered, wala akong pinag sisihan kahit na worst pa. Im lucky enough. :) GUIDE me God in my daily decisions. Thank YOU so much and ILOVEYOU byond infinnity. :) <3